A quick update -
Hubs took a turn for the worse yesterday afternoon and was dashed down to Exeter - he now has a bed in what is reported to be the best Orthopaedic Hospital in Europe - this will become his home for the next few weeks - Round one of many surgeries is planned for tomorrow - The KWire in his foot needs to be removed as it is causing damage to what little bone he has left - The Doc is going to do all he can to enable Hubs to walk again - I'm praying harder than ever that the surgeons hands are blessed and enabled to perform miracles - My heart is breaking - My head is hurting - I'm tired - I'm emotional - I feel lost when Hubs isn't around - The distance between here and the hospital is just too far - The drive back and forth takes 90 minutes each way (so long as you don't get caught up behind a tractor!!) - I arrived home at 3.30am this morning to find J curled up in our bed (he is missing his partner in grime more than we ever anticipated possible for a kid who suffers from attachment difficulties)
The bed is too big without Hubs in it and our house doesn't feel like home when one of us is missing.
Feeling totally bleurgh today but also thankful that my Mom is here to hold my hand and wipe away my tears - and to tell me that in time, its all going to be OK.....I know she's right - I'm just feeling a little overwhelmed by the events of the past few weeks and the reality of it all seems to have hit me hard over the past 24 hours.....I NEED to continually tell myself to stay POSITIVE......WE WILL get through this.....I KNOW we will.